At times like this, I feel so very helpless...

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

Even in my sleeps, i'm in pain. Waking up every hour only to try get back to sleep. And each time, a part of my leg will be stinging like heck. In one of my dreams, I lay down by the side of the road trying to hold on till help comes and nurse me back to health.. Ice. Creams. Oinment. Anything I can do to aid in my healing, i'm doing it. Time is running out. I dont have much of it left..

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

IM FREAKING OUT AND I DONT KNOW WHYY!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! Im eating lika pig cause of that!! Holifuq. Damn.. T.T

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

Well, things are slowly getting better~ hope that this progress keeps on going...

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

I GET ANGRY IF ANYONE DOESN'T TREAT A GIRL RIGHT. YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

These past few days.. I've actually learnt things about myself. I had a chance to explore myself in a few ways. And I have to say, I've still got a long way to go. First of all, I am not a guy who has total control of his actions. I may have mindset of changing and the truth is, i'm not doing it. I'm not changing. I foresee this coming, but I have yet to do something about it. I'm so down to earth i can't even spend a few hours for Him. This is disappointing to me. I'm ashamed. Though my desire to get closer to him burns, I can't seem to do it practically. The intention is there, but I have yet to prove myself.. And my desires for certain things has somehow increased.. This is really a struggle for me. Ya Allah, I've gone too far from what You taught me. Forgive me. Please show me the way, guide me to go to the right path. There's too much love in my heart that I know it wont last. No matter how I want it badly, I know You know whats best for me. Please help me to get through this Ya Allah. YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

Heyy guys! Its been a long time. I wanna share a lot of things, but tonight, I had one of the weirdest moments. I heard a scenario that actually stunned me. This was experienced by Kailing.

So earlier today, I had an IT fair training with a few friends I know of, Hannan, Kailing, Shu yuan, Kai wen and lizhen(i know her but she doesnt know me). So anyway, after the training ended at about 5 at Orchard Ion, we went our separate ways. Me and hannan took the bus while kailing and shuyuan went to find someone. Hannan off to sch and I went home. So I thought that was like the end of the day like a normal day. Then, Kailing texted me. She said she was traumatized... I was shocked. Wth happened? Is she okay? I didnt know what happened.. She asked if I could send her home, so I did. She was from somerset with shuyuan. But since they lived in different areas, I only met Kailing at cck. First thing I asked was if she was alright. Her face was in disbelief and stunned throughout the time she told me what happened.

So Kailing and shuyuan were from cine leisure, where they had dinner, I think. Then aft that they wanted to go home, so they went towards somerset mrt. As they were walking, kailing was stopped by a random guy that came out of nowhere, while shuyuan walked on  w/o noticing. This was in a public area, not indoors or somewhere secluded.. So the guy asked her if she liked confident or cute guys. Wtf. Stunned, she replied confident guys. So the guy introduced himself as Melvin and shook her hands and kept holding on. Kailing was speechless and sort of lost conscious. She was blurred from reality. As that happened, shuyuan realised what happened and stop and looked at kailing. All of a sudden, 4-5 guys walked towards shuyuan and tailed her. She walked away hurriedly within that area, walking in a big circle to lose the guys. When she lost them, the guys changed their target and crowded around kailing and melvin. Kailing was still out, cant say or do anything. She was too shocked or something.. Then shuyuan quickly walked to towards kailing and pulled her away from the guys and hurriedly went to somerset mrt. Kailing was still blurr.. Then, they met their classmate and he asked kailing what they were doing. Out of the blue, kailing answered they were shopping. But they werent. Shuuyan and the friend were shocked. Obviously they didnt cause they werent holding any bags.. So yea. It took kailing a while to fully regain full conscience, but even then, she couldnt rmb anything other than a guy approaching him. That was when she texted me I guess..

So I went out of the house at about 1120~ yea. It was late.. My dad overheard me meeting a friend at that hour and wasnt too happy. It was my fault cause previously, I didnt go home aft going out at late hours. Hehehe. So I met her at the mrt ctrl stn evn though she told me to wait for her at the bus interchange. Well, it was nearing midnight. No way was I giving anything else a chance to happen to her. I saw her and her sotong face.. Lol. Then she explained what happened. Even I was in disbelief. How could such a thing happened? I was worried for her. But fortunately she was alright~ it was either she was mentally weak in that situation, or the guy did something to her.. There were so many possibilities I could imagine that could have happened. But one of the questions was, at that point of time when she blanked, what happened? She was paralyzed and considered unconscious :(

So I sent her home..hoping she'll feel better with company for that period of time. Well, she felt better at the end of it though.. By how much, idk. But at least it helped~

On another note, it was my first time sending a girl home to her doorstep~ achievement unlocked? Idk.. Idk my relationship with her.. Last time checked, I brozoned myself with her~ but that was more than a year...when Billy was after her. I became his wingman. What trap did I fall into now? What did I get myslef inot? Sigh... One thing I know i'll keep on doing. I'll take care of her and when she needs a listening ear or someone to comfort her i'll be there for her~ and to the guy who ends up with her, i'll make sure he treats her well.. :')

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)