Hola! Guess what? Haze is in SG! With regards from indonesian govt. Hahah. Haze it a good thing or a bad one? Lol. There are the pros and cons. I'd say its a 50/50. On the down side, its bad for our health in numerous ways, esp when the highest psi is 453, which is basically hazardous to the human body.. This is the major concern for everyone, esp to the people working outdoors, in which majority are foreign workers. They are fighters. Even though their health and safety are conpramised, they still do their job. Whether they are forced to or not, they deserve some load off their shoulders and have plenty of rest and water.. And its good to see them wearing masks for protection since their exposure to the hazardous environment is higher. Hopefully none of their lives would be taken away due to le haze.

On the bright side, we can actually see how the society, how the govt and people work and think. Be it from indonesia or singapore. We now see their true response to real problems. Their growth in time, their true nature. Its funny yet disappointing to see the indonesian govt responding like a bully and a bitch. I mean, if you dont want help from sg, or so you claim, there is no need to call names and be immature.. Pfft. Theres no real answer to the real qn. And we know that the govt  will have motives ay times and cant be trusted. But in sg, we need to have faith that what the govt is doing is for our well being. Unless they really lose their mind.. Lol. Adios.

Well probably im not ready yet. Or I cant take another rejection from her again and stir up another pointless argurment. Give me some time to figure it out...

My story may not be much, but its a war for me. There are many endings to various stories even though the plot is similar. The only key variations are the characters. Like enzymes, in life, there is the induced key mechanism. Some may call it the lock and key, but that applies only to a perfect match. In reality, there have to be changes made for there are no 2 being in the world who are the same. They may be twins or clones, but they are similar,  not the same. Anywho.. In my story with sufiyah. I dont think its gonna fit in any way. Unless I force it to. I've beem thinking about it since my test were over..  i've had some talks w a few of my friends and all.. The advice given are all so similar. But only hannan know the details of the story. The others only know roughly what im really going through. Its like im trying to put two north poles tgt or two south poles tgt. Every time I try to get close, something pops up. I know that even though my feelings for her is completely sincere, she doesnt understand that. Even though I keep on give in to her, she doesnt stop. Ive learnt from people and the past. Not saying that I know everything, but picking up a few things along is a good thing. Increasing my knowledge and wisdom will definitely help in the future. I've helped out a few people and it feels good. Even when that happens, I reflect on my story and well... Im loser. Things dont work out. I dont work out. People may say I am so much more than what I see in myself, but I dont believe in that. Cause I know myself more. I too have my personal space and time. And that is like 10x or more of the me I show to the world. I can say im a failure, but im not and I know that. I can be as realistic as I can be, but in life, we need to have faith in things. Taking that leap of faith and go beyond our boundaries. That is where our adventure lies in our life. Trying to get sufiyah is just like that. Its almost impossible, its not easy. Not easy at all. I can choose to give up and let go. Or I can choose to continue. If I pursue, the cycle might repeat. But a different approach can yield a different result.. Ive been thinking about that and it may work, but a whole lot of things have to be considered. The other option is to back out. But what if she was the one. I want a sincere relationship. She may not be the best for me, but there are just some things in life that are meant to be. While some are not.. Maybe its time for me to take the leap of faith of 2013. A huge one... Just maybe its time..

Its already June and a lot memories come in this month. Many of my close friends' birthday lies on this month. First of all, there is my best buddy, Fadhli! Hahaha. He's been my best friend since like sec 1 when we met. We went through thick and thin together and we cherish each others' presence. Yolo is all we know. He's a big shot in BPGHS while I was the slacker underdog? I had great potential in my cca but I chose the road of a slacker along w halim~ hahah. Well, yeap. Anywho, we cried tears of sorrows as well as joy together~ you can say that the three musketeers of 05 still stand strong! Thats me, fadhli and norman! Woohooo! Lols. So we celebrated his bday with the movie Now You See Me. Its a fucking nice movie la sia! Watched it w norman, fadhli and hafizou! Speaking of whom, finally we caught up with fizou! Thats right. We met fizou after like 6 months? Hahaha. Missed him too darn a lot. Heh no homos. Had a great convo w them after the movie~ :) its good to know things are going well with them. Sacrificed my study time for them. Well, it was totally worth my time! :))

Next up, there is Elaine! To the one who got away and went to a place I cant come close to. We were once two really close friends. But now, we are nothing more than just 2 distant friends who have yet to see each other. Thats right.. She still havent kept to her words. I waited for so soo long. But anywho, you can say I am over her, in a way I cant explain.
There were lots more that happened. But thats all for now. Til my next update guys! :)