Yellow! I mean, Hello!! This is Mimi reporting for duty~ its currently 1600h, 16/11/2012. Im now waiting at le bus stop at my house. Destination: Ngee Ann Poly, aka my school. Lols. Its a friday, and I dun have any lessons or event. It may be friday, but my friends have school. So im all alone in a way.. I wanted to go to school in the morning as per usual, but my mind wasnt disciplined enough. So I slept throughout the morning and only woke up at 11. As in really woke up. There were times I woke up and fell back aslp. More than 5 times. Lol. So when I woke up, my grandma asked me to go the shop to buy some things. So I got up, refreshed, and showered. Hahahah. Then I had my breakfast. Guess what I had! Jemput-jemput ah! Sedap siol. Whats that? Its like heavenly food. Lol. Its dough with onions, chili, maybe potato(mine had it) and some other stuff. Check it up on google! You'll surely find it. So I had about 10 pieces of it. Wanted to finish the whole lot of it, but had to save some for my bro. He was still aslp then. Lol. Didnt fill me up, was still hungry. Oh you know me! Nyehehehe. I went to the shop and quickly came back. Should I tell you sth? Should i? Ok, so when I was on my way to the shop and I saw a kid wearing chua chu kang pri uniform. I was surprised cause the first thing that came to my mind was Elaine. Yeap. She was from cckps, but why on earth did I think of her when I saw a cckpsian? Psycologically, I means im still not over her. Logically, illogical. Practically, impractical. Technically, I cant comprehend how the human body and even more, how the mind works. Oh btw, I saw a few hot girls while I was on the bus. They were not in the bus though. So since in Singapore, and the weather is currently scorching, they are physically hot. But in bro terms, not bad.. They were hot. Some wearing tank tops, some dresses, and others, casual clothes. But still hot. I'll give a B- the faces though.. Whoops. So anw, OH WAIT. A pretty girl just got in the same bus im in! 3 seats in front of me.. Whoooo. Lol. So anw, I believe I am still not over Elaine. Thats a fact ah. The only reason I kinda hate her is maybe cause I cant bear to be hurt cause of her. Trying go get myself further from her before I fall of the edge of a cliff. Heh.. Its not easy, but its for my own sake. Oh damn! The pretty girl from earlier just alighted.. Hahah. She's from Pioneer JC. Lol. Okay, enough of that stuff. When I came back from the shop, I went off for friday prayers~ and my bro was preparing to go to le CAGE to kick some balls. I was quite early, but the masjid quite full also. Moved to the front like I would and performed le prayer. Then I met Fadhli afterwards! Yayayayy. Lol. Had a good time~ oh, apparently Hafiz and Fuad went to Al Khair. They had some camp in seramboon or how ever call it. Scouts territory. Guess who bought dadeh?? (yoghurt if im not wrong). Me!! Hahahah. So I walked with Fadhli and Rahmat to yew tee area. They had some CIP thing there. Hahahah. Caught up with them :) time well spent for a lonely day.. Then I went home via bus. Too hot for a walk home. Lols. Then I ate FOOD. Rice and sardine. Delicious. New Moon~ :) did some stuff and went off to school to jump! Which brings us to the start of this post. Hahah. Blog off! Chao~ ;)
So I've been thinking, I really cant get over Elaine. No matter how hard I try to, it doesnt just go away that easily.. Well one of the few reasons is that I pass by her house at least 8 times a week. Going to and back from school, I pass by. I used to look around, hoping to see her. Then at night, I would look at the window at her house and imagine her looking through it.. I want to call her, but i didnt want to disturb her. So, that was a habit I had. I'm slowly kicking that habit, but I have to say it is NOT easy. just this morning, I didnt look at her window, but inside, I was kinda hurt. I was vulnerable. If anyone were to abuse me verbally, i would have knocked that person down and out with one lethal blow. Fuck im serious. maybe not knock him out, but it would be better if I didnt punch or kick full force.. :/
While I'm at this topic, I'm trying to stay away from getting into relationships or even liking a girl. I'm not stable, thats for sure. Thats why another commitment would just make my life worse. Next year maybe. I have chances now, but I have to pass them for now. Thats the shit part. Life has its ups and downs I guess.
I have to be patient then.. Kesabaran adalah separuh daripada IMAN. hehehe :) here's a picture of me being me~ BYE.
Hey! WARNING. This post may be weird and uncensored, so for your own safety, you might want skip this post. It is NC16. Maybe M18.. Hahah.
So I had a series of dreams a few nights ago.. Now is Monday~ as I said before, recently, I have been able to recall my dreams better. Maybe this is a sign for me. A guide for me to live my life, like what I prayed for. I asked God to give me guidance to help me through this rough times. But some of my dreams doesnt even make sense. So im quite confused.. :/
So first up, it was a totally random. I remembered I was in my sister's car. My second sis was driving and I was sitting at the back with my third sis.. Then I made a call, and Jane was on the line. I told her to wait under the void deck while I was on the way to fetch her. Weird right? Thats not the worst part. When I we arrived at the destination, she was alr waiting there. She was wearing sleevless translucent shirt with short pants. Then the freaky part was that her pubic hair popped out from her pants for the world to see! WTF!! Its like a jungle down there. No, worse than that. Its like giagantic nature reserve in Avatar the Last Airbender cartoon. The part where the Aang saw Tuff in the forest but has no idea who she qas. He hasnt met her yet. Yes. That kind of hairy! Eeew! Disgusting like shit sia! And its from Jane some more! Shit. The hair was curly like OMG. Couldnt tank it sia. Then she came in the car saying "eh, sorry ah I forgot to shave.." I was like, seriously?? I was awkwardly disgusted. Couldnt look at her, couldnt say a word out of my mouth.. *PUKES*
Well thats about it, of the first dream at least.. Hahahahah. WEIRD. TOTALLY WEIRD. Next up, a sad story for me.. I'll skip to the plot, cause thats the only thing I remember. Hahah. So the dream was regarding Elaine. It started of with me and some guy, I cant recall who, walking in a shopping centre. We were talking to each other as per normal, when suddenly, we saw Glennys and Elaine~ we said hi but continued walking.. When I saw Elaine happy, smiling and all, I was like upset and angry at the same time. I kept my distance from her when she tried getting close to me. And she was still smiling and qas cheerful. Then we went into a big shop or sth, Daiso maybe? Lols. That was when the 4 of us went our own ways to explore, and that was when I approached Glennys.. Why? You'll know in a while. I tried to start a normal conversation w her, then I asked if Elaine was single. She didnt want to tell me at first. But after much persuasive talks from le awesome me, she gave in. She said NO, she was attached. Then I went on and asked if the rumour about her and douchElvis breaking up early this year was true. NO. Then Glennys, straight in my face, said that she didnt need me and she was happy with that douche all that while! When she said that, my heart sank like titanic, dramatically. I went off crying. I remembered I cried in the dream for a long time. Its like when I almost reached the top of a mountain, Elaine pushed me down and when I reached the bottom and was brutally injured, Glennys was there to step on me, saying things like you wont reach the top cause you're useless or sth. Sad sia.. :/
I'll skip 1 dream cause its fucked up. So next, it was an artistic dream of some sort. Ill just summarize since now ive no mood cause of the prev dream.. Damn.
So it was at a void deck, amd people were dancing. Me, family and friends. We danced at night, from about 7-12. We danced all types, bollywood, kpop, pop etc. Them qhen leaving, we got into a lorry and went home. When I slept in the dream, I woke up in reality. Wow. Nice transition~ hahahaha
So thats all for one night. Ive more dreams but I wont blog all of it ofc. Ahahahahah. After a long time of not being able to recall my dreams, its nice to rmb the dreams I had! Lols. Happy dreaming guys! :))
TGIF!! Lols. So its friday todayy! Do you what else today is? RACHEL'S BIRTHDAY!! Woohooo~ my grandma is getting older by the day! Who isnt..? Hahahah. She's having some problems though.. Hope she can pull through~ i'll be there for her through thick and thin! She's one of the closest friends I have. I've known her for 4 years, but i've only been close to her 2 years ago. I can trust her and I know she can trust me. We may not be as close as how best friends are, but the strong bond is there. At least thats how I feel~ Hahahah :P
So today she's been feeling down and all, having the feeling of not wanting to celebrate beacuse a certain someone, who shall not be named. That person, who I will call Shit from now on, is responsible for being irresponsible. Shit is a big meanie to Rachel and what Shit did was fucked up and unreasonable. Shit messed up Rachel's whole year and more. I cant believe Shit could change to the extent that what he would lose his heart and turn blind. His heart is now full of shame and shit, but since he lost it, he doesnt feel anything. Now I condemn him. I just hope he would at least apologise to Rachel before he dies. Fuck Shit! >:(
Well, moving away from Shit.. So yesterday (now is le next day), I asked Rachel out since she said she didnt have any plans and I dont want her day to end on a bad note~ take her to dinner maybe, and spend some time with my beloved granny.. :) I asked her in the afternoon, but she didnt reply. She replied me only at about 6.. So apparently, there was a dinner planned out by Rong Sheng for Rachel, together with 05 gang - Super Jiaheng, Mighty Roy, Destroyer Fadhli, Sexy Wee and Mimi. Lols. I was still in school then. Hahahah. Rachel only knew bout it that afternoon. So I left school about 15min after knowing bout the dinner. Took 67 to cck. Dayumm! The traffic then was jammed, as usual.. Hahahaha. Reached Lot 1 at about 730pm. Half hour late, but not the last.. And the rest were still waiting to be seated. Well, whatdya expect from pizzahut?? Lols. I WAS REALLY HAPPY TO SEE THEM!! Hahahah. The one that really changed was Rong Sheng. He was slimmer. Just when I thought he was slim the last time I met him, he changed again. He looked a tennis player somehow. Maybe its his sexy shirt, revealing part of his chest. LOLOLOLOL. We talked while standing. Had a great laugh every min. Boyy did that bring back memories! Marvin was still as funny as ever! And Roy, he grew taller amd slim down. Nice~ I was still the same old me, but with my hair longer by a bit. Lols. Oh, I cant stop looking at Rachel. I miss her so much and wanted to hug her, but it would seem awkward. I want to spend the night with her, not in the bed ofc, and just talk. Hahahah. Doesnt sound like me at all, does it? But yea.. I forgot to mention, Rachel was wearing a dress! She looked good in it too~ ;) it was her second time wearing a dress though... lol. So anyway, when we finally got our seats, the VIP came. Zhang Jiaheng! Hahahah. He's still as funny smart as ever! :)) we ordered our food, 10-20min after settling down, and did what we all did best. Gossip. LOL. And if you realise, Rachel was the only girl there :> we talked about a lot of things, esp girls~ it was interesting, but since all of them were in jc and still considered close with each other and I was in poly, I was kinda out of their frequency. But I caught up and well, I had a great time! We had our second round cause medium pizza was considered miniature. hehehe. I cleared the food, since I didnt order any side dish, just like Fadhli.. Lols. Bros to the core! Hahah. Rachel wanted to change school, cause of Shit. Thats just not right. I'll talk to her soon bout it.. So we continued to chat til about 930. Then, it was time.. Le birthday cake!! Hahahah. We sang the bday song for her out loud. She cut the cake, and we took a grp picture. After dinner was over, Rachel paid for everything. It was kinda awkward, but she insisted. But I wont let her go unpaid. Lol, someday I would pay her back someway.. :) Then I went to the toilet with Fadhli to finish up our part in Rachel's bday card! Hahah. But I really had to go to the toilet, so... Ya. Lol. Then I called Rachel's mom (Rachel was the one talking to her mom, I just dialed the no.) to arrange Rachel's pick up, and we all went to the first floor. Took another grp picture! Lols. We stand and talked til Rachel's mom came and then we split and went home. Walked home w Roy and SW :)) had a talk which lasted quite short, but it was well spent! Reached home, KO. Lols. Was so happy! But this small part of me wasnt satisfied though..
Anyways, pictures are still with rong sheng. So if I get it, i'll post them up here~ :)
Cheers! ^^
So one of my motivations is myself. I have yet to be the best that I can be. I have always done just enough to pass, not to excel. Now, I want to be the best tht I can be. I want to excel and my studies and more importantly, I want my passion for long jump, or being an athlete, to burn the brightest it has ever burnt. .i want to carry the brightest torch. The torch which illustrates my passion for the sport. I have yet to unleash the potential beast within me. I have so much to give, but I lack the time to give it my all. Cause of my other commitments. Soon.. After Red Camp is all over and by next year, I will be the monster everyone has been waiting to see. Another jumper rising from the sand.. Beware! Hahahahah >:D
These past few days, my life seems to be a mess. Things dont fall into the places I planned them to be. I get angry and ticked off easily. I really have the urge to smoke and do stupid things. And I just feel like not going home. I just wanna stay somewhere peaceful, where I can plan things out without being disturbed. Its not easy to plan and execute everything the way we want them to. I admit its very difficult without the right motivation. Right now, I dont know which path to take. My goals are clear, not all of them though, but I just dont have the right push. The motivation. I have too many goals. Its difficult go prioritise. I have to be patient. I have to re-live that phase again. Learn to live life in patience. Meditation. I need an hour rest my mind. Each day. I can do it. I just need to find my motivation once again. Like I did before. It may be dying, but I wont let the fire die out. I wont give in to myself~ I wont lose out~ (success kid)
These past few days, my life seems to be a mess. Things dont fall into the places I planned them to be. I get angry and ticked off easily. I really have the urge to smoke and do stupid things. And I just feel like not going home. I just wanna stay somewhere peaceful, where I can plan things out without being disturbed. Its not easy to plan and execute everything the way we want them to. I admit its very difficult without the right motivation. Right now, I dont know which path to take. My goals are clear, not all of them though, but I just dont have the right push. The motivation. I have too many goals. Its difficult go prioritise. I have to be patient. I have to re-live that phase again. Learn to live life in patience. Meditation. I need an hour rest my mind. Each day. I can do it. I just need to find my motivation once again. Like I did before. It may be dying, but I wont let the fire die out. I wont give in to myself~
This might be random, but I have recently started to recall my dreams. Everyday, when we sleep, we are bound to let our imagintions run wild and it will all come together in a form of what we call dreams. At least thats what I think. Hahaha. So the story is, for a few months, I dont recall having any dreams, until recently.. And these are not dreams. They are NIGHTMARES. Its all horrific and tragic. At least 2. I only rmb 3 though.. Lol. But still~
So the first was a dream about a visit to my grandma's house, if im not wrong.. I was with my family I recall correctly, and other ppl as well. We were moving towards a block along the road and it started to get cloudy. The sky turned greyy. Wind started to sway the trees and it grew stronger by the second until a flash of lightning strike a HDB flat nearby. There were explosions. Part of the building collapsed! Then the whole area, the neighbourhood got chaotic. People screamed at the top of their lungs. My heart raced faster than it ever had. So much blood was pumping through my vein. I was terrified. The first thing I could think of was to get to safety. My gramdma. She was the one I remembered in my dream. I guided her to the nearest flat, shelter. It was a dramatic journey. It was only about 100m, but seemed to be a mile when we headed there.
In the sky, there was a vortex like feature brewing mecilessly. Lightnings spammed the Earth with it's fury. The sounds they created was undescribable! It was loud, continuous andWe were helpless. It just wont stop. While my grandma and I were seeking shelter, we encountered close calls, almost got struck by lightnings. The one I remembered clearly was the one when we were about 10m away from the flat, a lightning struck the person in front of us, 5m away! Damn! That scene was unsightful and shocking! I was stunned, paralyzed.. So we quickly continued to the shelter. We hid there for a while. The lightning trashed the whole area. It wasnt the things that happened to me, but to the others and how this war-like situation was able to cause so much terror. I have to say, the sound of the thunder was just too destructive. My ear could have bled. It was just.. I CANT PUT IN INTO WORDS. Scary. Loud. Killer. All those words and more. This event continued for hours in my dream. Terrified by the situation, I was fortunate that my mother woke me up! Hohohohhoho. That was one the most scary dreams I ever had. I may have to rank it 4th. Hahahahah >.<"
Well i'd like to tell more stories, but its kind of not censored... Lols. So, til the next time! :):)
Hey! Today was exhausting!! 3/11/12. Why? Its POLITE, polytechnic-ite intergeted competition. The schools from these tertiary level compete against one another in all sports. Well, im the track and field team as you know it! Hahahah. Ametuer long jumper hoping to be the best in Singapore! Wahahah. Big dreams for a small boi. Lols. Anything is possibe with belief, determination and diligence! >:) well, I have improved since last month. Last month, I participated in the U23 comp. I consistently hit 4.5m and above, with 4.88 as my best. I had 6 jumps then.. Now, with 3 jumps, hit 5.23m, 5.21m and 5.10m. Its not bad, but I know I could have done better~ at least the championship record was broken! The men long jump with 6.59m, and women shot put with 13.15m! Congrats to them! And congratulations to all who did their best in this POLITE!! Oh, one more.. CONGRATULATIONS to Haikal for his first medal in POLITE!! Although the weather sucked, IT RAINED, he still did okayy.. Be cleared 1.65m, but drew with the first person. The thing that differentiated them was the Xs they had in the previous clearences.. He unfortunately had 1 X. If not, he could have battled longer and clinched the gold instead! Dayumm.. No videos or pictures were taken for field events.. Sad sia. Cant see what and how we did. What to improve on.. But I think Nicholas got a few shots. Oh wells! We did our very best, and we shall not regret this very day we jumped, threw and ran for Ngee Ann. I saw Azlan thanked coach. He said "Coach, thanks for everything! For giving me this opprtunity~ thanks!" that really made me see the that just to participate was a privilege. I'll continue to strive to be the best that I can be, streching my limits. Hahah more stories to come! See ya! :):)
