Today was full of it. I've been going through a lot lately, and I have to say I'm, not the only one.. The past few days, I've been more emotional than usual. I admit, I don't really breakdown, but when I break down hard. I'm not sure if I'm having PMS though.. :/ Lately, while listening to music, I often flash-backed and reflected upon what I did and what I have yet to do. What I hope to achieve. What I want be. Who I want to be. What I'll do in life. How I'm gonna pull through when such events happen. How I will act. But of all the questions I ask myself, the one that really brought me in tears was, "who will come by and visit me when something happens to me? will they even know in the first place?" This really made me cry.. even as I'm blogging now, it's happening again. I don't know why I would think of such things, but I did. I'm not saying that something would definitely happen to me, but what if.. would my eldest brother be there? would my friends be there? would Fadhli be there? would Elaine be there? It might be random to you but to me, its like a reflection. I've had relatives passing away early this year and ones before this. During those period, I thought to myself, when I die, who will be at my funeral? Who will visit me at my grave? Now it all seems like I'm a goth, being depressed and all, but I'm not. I'm just thinking about my life. What will I be remembered for? Who will I be remembered as? I want to be the guy who escapes the friendzone. I want to be the guy who never gives up and makes his parents proud of him. I want to be the guy who becomes a doctor or the one in the lab working his ass off to find a cure for diseases so that others can live. I want to be the guy who motivates and comfort others so that they can enjoy their lives and do things they thought were impossible to achieve. So basically I don't want to be the guy who can't be moved. I want to be the guy who moves the rest. I may not be be known to you everyone, but from a different angle, I'm helping a lot of people.When I move a person, I change his/her life. They might do the same, whether to their friends, family or a stranger. The process goes on and on..

While this is going on, I'm still missing Elaine. She is the one I've been chasing for the past 2 years. She knows who I am. We were very close friends. I never thought I would have made it this far, I really didn't. To me, she's way out of my league. I never thought I would be able to get her attention. To get her to open up to me. To be close to her. But I did. I was motivated. I didn't care how long I had to wait. I knew that one day, just one day, I might catch her. I don't have a masterball with me, but a normal pokeball would do just fine. I can't really tell you the whole story, but in short, I've been friendzoned by her. I almost got out of it, but something stopped her. I don't blame her for that, I respect her decision.. I'm still doing what I can to keep our friendship close, even though it's tough. We're in different schools now and her schedule is damn packed. To meet her is also difficult. Its like once in a blue moon I get to meet her, maybe rarer.. I can do more, but I can say I'm scared. scared that I'm disturbing her :/  anyway, I hope one day I'll be happy with whoever I am.. Here's a picture f her pretty face~ ^^

Well, tonight really scared the fuck out of me. This time it's not me, it's one of my best bro, Halim. He's been going through shit since he got together with Ayaka, though it was rewarding and worth while. Wanna know the shit that ruined him? Zharfan. This bastard doesn't know his place. Interfered with Halim's relationship and act as though there wasn't anything wrong with it. Not long ago, they broke up cause of that piece of shit. Then just now, Halim texted Ayaka saying he wanted to kill himself! I WAS DAMN SCARED. I texted him, called him. No answer. WTF. I preyed, hoping he was alright.. Then not long ago, Hannan (my goo friend) went to Halim's house to check on him. They lived close by, so ya.. Fortunately, Halim is fine, just going to through a hell of a time. Lots of things happened. Good and Bad.. They said time heals everything, I hope it heals him before anything happens.. I hope he doesn't do anything crazy as I did.. It might end up horrible.. :( anyway, here are some pics of Halim.. Please stay safe..



To everyone out there, there are people who love you, those who care for you. Though there are people whom made you go through shit, think of them. They love and care for you. They made your life better and worth while. They made you who you are today. Because of them you are still alive, strong enough to live on. They gave you the strength and inspiration you need. Thank them. Cherish the moments you spend with them. Cherish your life. Cheers~ ^^

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

HEY!! AS I HAVE SAID, I'LL BE BACK IN A JIFFY. LOLOLOL :) So I'm here to talke about today, 29 august 2012. Woke up early in the morning at 530 to prepare to go to school. School. during the holidays. OMG. That is one of the last few things I wanna do. So I had to go there for some briefing for a mini video making event I have in school. So apparently, I teamed up with Fareed and maybe Hannan to create a video and show how great our course is. How awesome Biomedical Science is. LOL. So the lecturer showed us several videos to illustrate the various strategies to convey our message to the audience within 90 seconds.  They briefing took up about 1h of the morning. Going to school for an hour. WTF. wasted my time. Ate lunch at Munch again. To make it worse, the fish cutlet I bought was not properly cooked. My day already starts sucks early in the morning.. Haiyyooo. So after that, I bumped into Jerome at the bus stop. It was kinda awkward.. To make it worse, he had a sore throat and it was difficult talking to him.. Fast fwd to home!

So at home, I decided to make random covers.. In the end, I ended up breaking into tears when I was singing.. Got too emotional.. Damn. I still can't forget about her. Elaine. I still can't get over her. I wasn't planning to anyway. I'll talk about her some other time. I promise :) I then left for le awesome outing with all mighty ReDDiAnS!!

Step 1: Meet Haikal at cck mrtstn.
Step 2: CCK --> JE --> Raffles --> Orchard
Step 3: Play around with Chubby mamma Renee :P
Step 4: Meet & greet AhKeat, Tabin, Denzel, Joanne & Renee :D:D
Step 5: Move to Ngee Ann City Seoul Garden.
Step 6: Pay $28 for an ALL I CAN EAT BUFFET.
Step 7: EAT ALL I CAN EAT!! ahahahaahah


At first, there were only 7 of us, many of them were late. So I sat on the same table as this HAIKAL, TABIN & GLENNIS. Haial & Tabin were meat lovers and so we took all the beef, chicken and seafood we could possibly take and eat. Round after round, we ate like we haven't eaten for days!! Fried the meat. Eat the meat. Fried the meat. Eat the meat. Fried the meat. Eat the meat. THAT WAS ALL THAT WE DID. But we did eat some veggies though :) hahahaha. The rest of Reddians came in after we finished half of our first round of MEAT. Lol. After about 4-5 round of hardcore and delicious buffet, we moved on to le DESSERT. The BEST part!!! ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. ICE CREAM. I LOVE ICE CREAM. HAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHA. I ate about 6-8 bowls of ice cream? At least 3 scoops each. LOL. I went back and forth the freezer like a monster! The funny part was that when AhKeat asked me to take a honeydew, i took for him 1 slice! He showed me 1 finger, so I took 1 slice. But he wanted a whole plate of honeydew. Ooops~ my bad.. >.< Then when he wanted plain water, I accidentally gave him HTWO-O. hahahahaahaha. WAH I DAMN FAIL SIA. pekak badak aku. xD

So in the end, we took pictures, with the help from Lijie :D \

RED INDIANS UNITED <3

REDDIANS GLs ^^v

REDDIANS FRESHIES~ :D

Ze Non-SB Boyz

Le Awesome Duo :P

So that's the end of it! I'll update soon. Hopefully :) YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

Hey! Its been a week or so since I updated my blog. I've been busy lately and won't be free for the next week. The past few days had its ups and downs, good and bad moments, easy and tough times. It was a heck of a roller coaster ride I would say. I won't be going through in detail what happened cause I have something else in mind to blog about.. So basically, I continued on my journey to jalan raya with my family. Went to quite a few houses, say about 5? So these houses we went to were my aunts', grandmother's siblings' and great grandmother's house. Did some catching up with them, even though I'm not so close to them. hahah :) Other than that, I've been training hard for my long jump. Did basic drills and workouts. Pushed myself to my limits, hoping to achieve my goal of at least 6m by the end of September. For those who don't know, I'm in Track & Field, a long jumper. I just joined this sport in mid April this year. I was interested in it, so I picked up the sport! :) and boy was I glad I did! Its amazing how far one can jump. Even though I had my eyes on long jump, I might be placed in the triple jump vent as well. This year, my school, Ngee Ann Polytechnic is lacking in members in the field side - Long jump, triple jump, high jump, shot put, javelin and discus throw. More of the freshies were more interested in short and long distance. Thus, this spurred me to train harder and improve myself so that my performance would attract other students to join the field side!! My motivation! Currently, I'm aiming to be as good as Azlan & Nicholas. They are my seniors. Azlan is awesomely talented. He's been in track & field since secondary school, so his experience brought him to a whole new level in poly. What was hard to achieve for me seemed effortless for him. Nicholas on the other hand, is just superb! His drills are nicely done and his jumps are as far as Azlan's. I am impressed by them and hope to surpass them when I graduate from Ngee Ann. By the time I leave NP, I hope to be able to jump an overwhelming 7.5m. For me, that would be one of my greatest achievements! But damn! Up til now, since I joined long jump, I haven't been to the gym. So I don't know what workouts to do :(:( This is terrible.. I need to ask Jeffery for help! Oh, he's the captain for field side :) He's a nice guy with great physical abilities. I can say that his determination and skills have moulded him into a better athlete! Trainings have been tiring definitely, but I have seen the improvements in my performance. YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

Hey guys!! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Muslims out there! Please forgive me for all my wrong doings, may it be on purpose or not. If I have hurt you in any way, please forgive me as well. I have no intentions in hurting you guys and making foes. Well, the past 2 days have been AWESOME!! As tiring it it may be, I enjoyed myself with my family :D And this year, my family wears... PURPLE! gay much? I'd say no! Purple is the colour of royalty. Back in the old days, the colour purple was difficult to create. In order to get the right colour and shade, much was needed to be done and to get something in purple was expensive. So, those who could afford things in purple were the rich people, which included the royalties. Hence, that's how purple became the colour of royalty. Now its gold, cause it valuable. Hahahaha. History aside! :) Well on the first day, my family and I went to my paternal's grandparents house! Headed there quite late, at about 11am. Guess the first thing I did when we reached there! That's right, le KITCHEN. HoHoHoHoHo!! my favourite part of Hari Raya. THE FOOD =) the sweet light of fooood~~ On top of that, my grandma's cooking is spot on! Delicioso!! That's what we would all say when it comes to our grandma's food. Lol. We spent quite some time there, say about 4-5 hours? hahahah. did some catching up with my relatives and grandma :):) time well spent with family I would say. Oh, since I couldn't sleep the night before, I fell asleep at my grandma's house.. >.< It wasn't enough, so I continued with my beauty sleep when I reached home. When I got up, boy was I stunned! my house was full of relatives. They had been there for like half an hour when I woke up! So I walked out awkwardly to greet them. hahah. paiseh sioll! but whatever.. had a great time with them :) family after family came by. About 3 in all. Busy in le kitchen.. not eating though :( helping out. ahahha #foreverinthekitchen. since  don't really hang out there during normal days, I was pushed there. hahah. seems fair at least.. :) Today was more of family bonding with my bros and sis! time to rap ya'll!!

9 a.m., waking up in the morningGotta be fresh, gotta go downstairsGotta have my bowl, gotta have cerealSeein' everything, the time is goin'Tickin' on and on, everybody's rushin'Gotta get down to the car parkGotta catch my ride, I see my family (My family)
Kickin' in the front seatSittin' in the back seatGotta make my mind upWhich seat can I take?
It's Raya, RayaGotta get down on RayaEverybody's lookin' forward to raya, rayaRaya, RayaGettin' down to RayaEverybody's looking foward to the day~
lol just kidding :P anyway, my bros and sis made this short cover just for fun.. Can't upload it cause its not with me, but you can CLICK HERE to see it on facebook! Not sure if everybody can see it. Sorry to those who can't view.. :( anyways, I FEEL GOOD!! Its Hari Raya period and its my holidays for about 2 months!! WOOOOHOOOOOO!!! hahahaha. Here are some pictures of first two days of my Hari Raya! :D

MY BELOVED PARENTS <3<3<3

Family under 1 roof~ :))

Awesome siblings!! ^^

DO RE MI The 3 Stooges

Ma Rocking Sista aka Le Chauffer

Random Mimi Appeared! xP

Me asleep at my grandma's >.<

Us with Grandma!! <3

My Sis and Nephew!!
 My bro at home after a looong day~



Awesome 5 with our dear niece! :D















That's all folks!! See ya guys soon! peace~^^v YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)

YoU aRe NoT aLoNe~ =)